Category: the Rant Board
I am in so much pain, and the worst thing is that I can't even say why, I have to keep it to myself and let it eat away at me. my world is black, and a black rain cloud looms over my head ready to rain down pain any time I dare to try to feel something else. I have no right to feel this pain, and yet I deserve to feel it, talk about poetic justice at it's best! I brought it on myself, and now I must pay the consequences, I deserve the punishment. I have no one to blame but myself, no one to be angry at but myself. I thought I would never feel this kind of pain again, I thought I conquered it long ago, but here it is again, rearing it's ugly head, it seems it will be here forever this time, nowhere to run, nowhere to hide, everyday it is there. I thought I was smarter than that now, but little did I know. I hate pain! I hate causing pain! Why is pain stalking me? What do I do with this pain? live with it? hate it? bury it deep inside me, keeping it hidden from the world around me? How long can i live with this pain? Will it be the ruin of me? How can I destroy this pain once and for all? Is it even possible? No, I don't think so. So now I feel like I am in an impossible situation, no matter what I do pain will be there to greet me every time I turn a corner, like an evil man dressed in black with intentions of doing me harm, always one step ahead of me, knowing what I am going to do before I even know. How do I escape him? He has crept into every aspect of my life, I can't deal with him anymore, I don't want to even do anything anymore because he is always there, I hate him! I hate myself!
What you need to do is go get help, from a professional, by the sounds of it. Writing on boards here isn't going to fix it.
Seconded.
I third that, although writing can help, at least some. It's written good enough to be on the Writers Block.
Well I think your right, should have been on the writers block, it was meant to be a piece of literature/rant/venting kind of thing, written to be like a dark poem, I think everybody feels pain at some point of their life, whether they bring it on themselves, or someone else hurts them, emotions can be very raw at the time, and that is what I was trying to portray here.
Well, you certainly did a very good job of that.
So, it's not true? Because if it is, you'd better go to a doctor/psychiatrist. Your choice. If it isn't, it belongs in the writer's block.
guys just because you right dark things doesn't mean you need help. go read some of my poetry....
well it is poetry and in the writing section. someone who feels this much pain needs help and quickly. he is describing clinical depression very well. i have in dthat club so speak from experience.
You are not a professional so you only know what you read. I write very dark stuff, but do i need help? not the help a doc can give.
totally with post 9.
thanks for talking sense
I know from experience that counselors/psychologists can make things worse sometimes. Maybe what you need is someone to talk to; someone who's been there already. I know when I was in counseling, I wanted desperately for someone to understand where I was coming from, not to hear sighs like they're about to diagnose you with a certain condition. I'll admit that sometimes medication is the only way, but I would try everything else before taking that route. You really don't want to mess with your body that way unless it's absolutely necessary.
OK, I think he said that it was just writing, so we don't need to argue over something pointless all right?
sheesh.
to posts 13 and 10, just... nooo.
Exactly Jess. Everyone is oh go get help go get help it's called get a fucking life... Not everything can be fixed by counselors or medicine...
Sorry, got a little carried away with some dramatic writing, everybody goes through timees of pain or grief over the loss of a loved one etc. it's just a natural process, not everybody expresses it so graphically though. Sometimes things seem very dark and hopeless, but wwe just have to get through it and go on with our lives, simple as that, not everybody needs to run to the Doctor when they feel sad about something that happens in their life, sometimes it just takes time to get through it, such was the case here.
They sure do. I've gone through such times myself. It is natural however if it continues I suggest you seek out a profetional. One should not suffer anymore than they have to.
I think some people thought you were actually going through this. That's the doctor stuff. I totally agree with you.